It is amazing how much one day can change from the next. Yesterday was a horrible day, I was cranky and everything was problematic. The boys were abnoxious and whiny, and I just cried and yelled, a lot.
Today was beautiful. The boys were happy and sweet, funny as ever. I laughed a lot, was able to handle good and bad things no problem. The weather was SO perfect, I could barely believe it.
What changed? Me.
I decided I really needed to start praying again. I read my scriptures every day and we pray as a family a lot, but rarely do I actually pray, out loud, for real. So I have been trying to just talk to the Lord through out the day, as I would a friend. The effect has been immediate and intense. Nothing seems out of reach or too difficult. Life just seems better.
I read Elder Ballard's talk from this past conference (here), and it was about families. How if we focused more on the family than everything else would fall into place. So I am trying to do things that would be beneficial for my family, not hindering it. I just really enjoyed the boys today. We had things we needed to do, but I didn't stress so much about it. I watched the kids as they played, saw the cuteness in the way they moved and talked. It is so much easier to be happy when you just stop thinking about all the problems and just focus on the few basic, simple things in life that are the most important.
There are so many things that can wrong in life, so many things that can hurt us and problems that can happen. Why worry about them? The Lord will take care of us. Even if bad things do happen, why let them ruin us? Just like a little kid trying to walk on the little curb of concrete. Stop looking at your feet and worrying about falling off. Grab the Lord's hand and walk happily, enjoying the walk because the Lord won't let you fall. That doesn't mean staying on the path will be easy, but you can still enjoy it and be so much happier when you make it home.
So, tomorrow, no matter the weather, or the challenges the day might contain, it is going to be a good day.
Thanks for sharing! It's so funny how we lose sight of our own spiritual growth as mothers, because we're so focused on the growth and function of our family.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you had a good day after a horrible day. I challenge you to look back at this post in one month from today and evaluate how you're doing. Hopefully the progress will be great and well worth it!
You're great!
You're amazing Cami! Thank you for helping me realize I'm not the only one that feels this way on a regular basis...good, then bad, then good. I feel like I'm on a constant roller coaster and I'm tired of being whiplashed. But it really is our attitude about it all that makes the difference. That and relying on the Lord. You're such a strength to me, thanks for sharing!
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