So I have been thinking a lot about my last post about how "little faith" I have. Tyson was talking to me yesterday and he reminded me about my favorite quote from Conference, which is from President Monson: "The future is as bright as your faith."
I have been reading in my personal study, trying for the first time in my life to read the Old Testament. It has been interesting to say the very least. Sometimes all the different ways to sacrifice an animal and all the details that go into creating a tent/tabernacle seem slightly boring and redundant to me. But then there are the moments with all the children of Israel that Moses is leading and how quickly they forget who they are following and how blessed they are to be saved from Egypt. How often they want to go back to Egypt and be slaves again and I can't help thinking, "what are they thinking?" But then I realize that really is how I probably sound. How quickly I forget who is leading me and where my destination is. Then with Tyson I have been reading about Alma and the sons of Mosiah and how much of a difference they made by striving to always do what the Lord wanted them to. Their work saved thousands of souls and reunited people that had been hating each other for centuries.
I don't know, I guess it has been interesting to see the difference between people that the Lord has blessed, who do the bare minimum and then the people who do all they can. Not that the children of Israel were bad or anything, but how different the world could have been if they were better. How different the world would be if I did better.
I know it may seem dumb that I write this basically for the whole world to see. I don't know why I do, maybe because I feel it is more challenging. This isn't something just scribbled in a journal that I might never see again, this is something that I write to the general public and have to live up to. And I don't know, I guess it is one of the few ways I know how to share my testimony with others. So we still don't know what we are going to do about our car, and other things, but I am trying to have more faith. I trust that the Lord will help us, He has never abandoned me before and I know He never will. If there is one thing I know, it is that the Lord loves each of us. There are lots of things I have doubted, but never that.