In this email today, I was writing him to help him, but I found it really helping me since I have been really struggling with the day in and day out mom stuff. You know, when you vacuum and two seconds later someone spills chips all over the floor, or when you wash all the sheets and that night someone wets the bed, so you wash the sheets and then they wet the bed again. Seriously, my life has been like that constantly for the last six years, but for some reason, the past few weeks it has really been getting to me. It didn't help that they were not the greatest of kids on Mother's Day. The day that you really hope they will be adorable and cute and sing praises to your name all day. Yeah, well, not my kids. They weren't horrible, but just not the greatest. And my attitude really didn't help them be any happier.
So as I was writing, I really started feeling better and better, and then when I hit "send," I thought, man, I need to read that again. And I thought of my little sister and my sisters-in-law who I am sure feel the same way I do sometimes. So for those of you that get sick of the mundane momhood stuff sometimes, this is for you:
"I read a scripture the other day that reminded me of you, so I thought I would share it with you: Doctrine and Covenants 68:6 (the Lord is talking to the elders called to serve missions) "Wherefore, be of good cheer, and do not fear, for I the Lord am with you, and will stand by you; and ye shall bear record of me, even Jesus Christ, that I am the Son of the living God, that I was, that I am, and that I am to come."
Pretty cool promise and instruction. I love you lots Ammon, and I am so proud of the work you are doing. There are many moments that I have a hard time remembering that the work I am doing is really important, especially when I feel like I am going insane with the constant chattering and fighting and snotty faces. But my work is incredibly important. I am raising God's children. I am teaching them, helping them develop testimonies and faith. And one day they will go out and teach hundreds of others about the Savior. So I know my work is important, but sometimes it is hard to remember in the moment.
So what I am saying is, there may be moments, especially in your new area where you are tracking and searching and exhausted and people keep telling you "no thanks," when you feel like giving up or wondering why you are doing this. So don't forget, your work is important. It may stink sometimes, but it is worth it, and all those people will call you blessed and be thankful for the service you are giving.
We love you Buddy. Keep smiling and sharing the truth that gives so much joy and light to the soul, just like the fiery red sunrise on a dark, cold world."