Meltdowns

There are a million different things difficult with pregnancy. But the thing that is probably the worst for everyone involved is the emotional roller coaster. When I was pregnant with Josh I vowed that I would still be a nice pregnant person, it was hard sometimes, but I remember being pretty good...I think. This time, I have kind of forgotten my promise to myself. I haven't been evil, I hope, but moody is for sure the emotion of everyday. And poor Josh and Tyson get all the side affects.

Yesterday, Tyson came home from his church meetings and we were talking and I don't know what happened, suddenly I was sobbing and I felt completely depressed and hopeless. I don't even think I was having a bad day and I still don't really know what I was crying for. But luckily Tyson is super patient with me and makes me laugh. He almost convinced me we didn't need to go to church, but alas, my conscience is my worst enemy. :) And today I snapped at cute little Josh like 5 times. I never get mad at the little guy and suddenly he is getting yelled at (okay, not really yelled at, more like lectured at, but that stinks for a 15 month old).

And I have to tell you, when Tyson was talking to me yesterday I was complaining that I am not the "happy Cami" anymore. He said that I hadn't been that Cami since I got pregnant. He meant when I got pregnant with Josh because I haven't stopped worrying since, but I thought he meant this pregnancy and so I said something to the affect that this baby isn't a good one. I feel bad because poor little kid, it isn't like it is his or her fault, it just happens. Oh well, hopefully my emotions will temper out eventually. It is hard to be glum too long with this bubbly little creature living with me. He is chirping at the birds out his window right now. I think he talks their language.

I am really excited to finally go to the doctor in two weeks and make sure everything is okay. I kept postponing calling them and making an appointment, but I finally got up the nerve and so yes, I am excited.

P.S.- "According to my accumulations" (as Ammon used to say), the baby is officially 11 weeks today. :)

This Tag is for Carmel

Okay, so my awesome little sister, Carmel made this tag all by herself, something I have never done. So here goes:

What is your favorite color(s)? yellow in the spring, blue and green in the winter

What is your favorite flower(s)? yellow roses and pansies (they have such cute little faces)

What is your favorite sport(s)? miniture golf, is that a sport?

What is your favorite food? chocolate covered strawberries or m&m milkshakes

What is your favorite movie? Pride and Prejudice, the newer one

Who is your favorite birth sister? I don't know, they both spoil me...

Babies or toddlers? toddlers, mostly because I have one, and he is so much more fun than he used to be. But I am excited for the new baby, but I'm afraid I will think he or she is boring compared to Josh

city clothes, kinda city clothes, or naturey clothes? (this is totally my favorite question) I don't know, usually it is just "naturey" clothes because I take that as comfortable clothes, however, I do like to dress up, not super city, but kinda city. ;)

I tag anyone who is willing to take on this awesome tag, especially KJ and Bunk.

The Best thing about being Married: Spending Eternity with Your Best Friend.

So I have been thinking a lot lately about being married and weddings and such. A lot of my friends are getting married and either calling me for advice, or I just want to hear the proposal story and such. But I find myself thinking each day about my experiences with Tyson. It has almost been exactly three years since the night Tyson and I decided that we wanted to get married and when I asked if he was sure, he said "Cami, will you marry me?" Of course I said yes, and from then on our relationship was planned to be eternal, until we went to the temple and it became eternal. I am so thankful for that day, that I wasn't too scared to say "yes," that we made covenants with each other and with the Lord to be faithful and true to each other.

I am so thankful for Tyson, he is so good to me. I used to worry that our happiness would quickly go away when we got married, but it hasn't. It is true he can be a turkey at times and there are lots of things trying to keep us from being happy and in love, but I have never been more in love with him than I am today. I still call him "hunny bunches" and I still get so excited when I hear him coming up the steps. I still get all giddy inside when he hugs me and I still laugh when he kisses me (although we still haven't figured out why I laugh). There is no one I would rather spend time with than him.

The wedding ring Tyson gave me is very much like the one above. The middle diamond is huge and gorgeous compared to the other two. I would stare at this ring for hours when I got it, and often find myself watching the sparkles reflected in the sun. It has always reminded me of eternity and our marriage. Eternity because it is round and circles never end. And the three diamonds remind me of how our marriage needs to be. The large diamond in the middle is the Lord, it is higher, prettier, far more radiant than the other two. And the other two represent Tyson and me. We are still sparkly and beautiful, but much smaller. However, with the three of them together, it is gorgeous and whole and perfect. It reminds me that with the Lord, our marriage can be gorgeous and perfect, far better than it would be without Him. He is how we found each other, He is the reason I had faith to marry someone I knew so little, it is because of Him and His atonement that Tyson and I can work out our differences and heal our arguments or "discussions" as Tyson calls them. :) The Lord is everything.

Life can be hard, and a lot of marriages end unhappily. But if we do our part and put the Lord first, trying our best to become like Him and then putting our spouse second, then we will be happy, no matter the challenges of this life. Anyways, I would just like to say that I am thankful to be married and to such a wonderful man.

Spinning

So for a few weeks now Josh has been spinning when we sing (especially popcorn popping and give said the little stream) or if music is on. However, catching it on film has been nigh unto impossible. But at last, I did it, and as you can see at the end he caught me. :)

PHOTOS!

So these first few are from Saturday when we went on a picnic with our friends Emily and Logan and their little boy Tommy. The boys are almost the same age and it was so weird because they are such little boys now! They were playing with sticks, and kicking balls, and trying to kill goldfish, pretty much what little boys do. It was so cute and so much fun!

Then this is Josh wearing Tyson's coat. He looks like he is dressed in a space suit, and it looks so much like pictures of Tyson when he was that age, it is weird.

This is from Valentine's Day when we watched our neighbor's kids. It was really fun and this is the only photo I have of all 3 of them that isn't too blurry. Of course, Josh is showing his bottom, but what can you do?

It snowed! And it was lovely!

This is Josh trying to get yo-gos out of his yo-go dispenser. I attatched it to his belt loop and he was so frustrated he couldn't get it off. He would do almost anything for a yo-go. Crazy kid.

The Latest on Josh

This really isn't going to be long. I was going to download some pictures but Josh woke up, so I only have a few minutes. Well, he may have fallen back asleep...who knows.

So my little dude man is learning way too much, way too fast. He runs, everywhere, it is kind of like a little jog, but he can get pretty fast when he is in trouble. :) He can reach the countertops, doorknobs, basically all things I wish he couldn't. He just learned to spin in circles, which he does non-stop unless I turn the camera on and then he stops. He folds his arms when we say prayer, he signs "more" for everything. Let's see, more means: please, more, food, pick me up, daddy play with me, i think i'm bored. Pretty much hilarious.

Anyways though, he really is awake, so I must go. He is NOT happy. :)

Happy Belated Birthdays!

Okay, so I have always been pretty convinced that I have a split personality. Half of my life I am really clean, organized, funny, social, and the other half I am lazy, slobish, clutzy, anit-social, and completely forgetful. Lately I have been the latter, especially the forgetful and slobish part. Well, and the clutzy too, but it has only hightened since I got pregnant. When I was pregnant with Josh, I tripped ALL the time. When I was 7 months along I fell down an entire flight of stairs at work completely embarresing myself and bruising every part of my body. Luckily Josh was pretty padded. That was only once, stuff like that happened the whole 9 months. Now I am back at it again. Like just now, I was talking to Kenni on the phone and I dropped the phone, so in trying to pick the phone up and put it to my ear, I somehow shoved it into my eye. It was hilarious, and I felt pretty dumb.

But alas, I digress, what I wanted to write is that I have been forgetful and haven't wished a great many people happy birthday on my blog, these people especially:

-My Mama

-Kristen

-Katie

MY MAMA

Her birthday was the 21st of February. She is gorgeous and funny and everything wonderful. I wish more and more lately that we lived not so far apart. 3,000 miles makes it hard for me to follow her around the house while she cleans like I used to do. Luckily, I know for sure she is coming out in October, so that makes me happy. One of my favorite things about her is that she is the greatest nuturer I have ever known. She knows just how to comfort, correct, and love. She used to stroke my head whenever I was sad, tired, or sick. I miss that so much sometimes, so I told Tyson about it so he strokes my head now which makes me so happy. Moms are just the greatest, the Lord really made miracles when He made mothers.

KRISTEN

Her birthday was the 25th of February. I first met her when I moved to Provo at the age of 6. We hated each other. :) Until our freshman year of high school when we were both in the same English class and got together to help each other with an essay we had to write. We didn't do much homework, but we talked about boys and made fun of people's laughs until we started laughing like them. It was so much fun. Those next four years were some of the best of my life. We met and started hanging out with Heather, and then Kirsten and Marissa and Kip. We had our ups and downs, but it was a lot of fun. I will never forget how forgiving Kristen always was to me. I was not the best friend, but she kept on loving me and taught me to be a better person. I was so excited when she told me she was getting married and then when I met Nate, I was so happy that she found someone so perfect for her.

KATIE

Katie's birthday was yesterday, she is Tyson's little sister. The first time I heard about her was my first Valentine's Day with Tyson. We were snuggling at my house after our freezing picnic, watching some old movie that neither of us remember (not because we were kissing, we were talking). I was losing my voice for some reason, and so I would ask Tyson a question and he would answer it. So I asked him to tell me about his family. He told me about Katie first. I don't remember much of what he told me except that she was so funny, that she and I were the only people in the world that could make him laugh when he was trying to be serious. That she sang like an angel. I called Katie that March 5 to wish her a happy birthday. I don't know if she had any idea who I was, because I wasn't with Tyson, I was at home with my family in California for spring break, but she laughed and was very nice to me. Ever since then, she laughs at me but it still nice. She sang at our wedding reception, and she does sing like an angel. I hope you had a great birthday Katie!

If there are any I have forgotten, I am so sorry! Have a very merry un-birthday everyone!