I love sleep. All day long I look forward to the feel of the smooth sheet and the comforting blanket on top of me and the pillow under my head. And the quiet, oh, I long for the quiet. And the time to recharge. What a wonderful time of the day.
But once those little kids finally drift into dream world, it is like my energy spikes. That is when it is time to party! I don't want to sleep, because as soon as I sleep, it will feel like just seconds and then another day is upon me. I love my little boys and love being with them, but it is nice to have those few hours of when they are slumbering.
It is a problem though, because I stay up later and later and then the next day I am exhausted and cranky. Which makes me a not so nice mom, and the kids get more on my nerves. So then I can't wait for them to go to sleep and then I stay up to enjoy it. Thus leading to an endless cycle of not very happy home and exhausted mama.
Plus, my hubby has a really hard time getting out of bed in the mornings since his work out buddies have moved and there is no one he has to get out of bed for. So he feels cranky without that time in the morning too.
It finally hit me yesterday that this has got to change and I need to be the one to change it. I can't just expect it to get better without me doing anything about it. So I am changing my habits. And this is not something easy to do...and since I am not being very coherent, you can tell it is going to take a few days for my body to adjust.
I am waking up early. That way, my handsome man has a reason to get out of bed. And I get some alone time and a early start on the day. And hopefully this makes me feel like going to bed earlier tonight. I REALLY hope so. It is funny, the boys aren't awake yet and I have already accomplished a ton of the things that usually take me a few hours to accomplish every morning. Plus, Tyson and I have already had a little bit of time to talk, which we hardly ever do, so this may work out great. I am really hoping. :)
So really, why I am writing, is to say that people can change. We are creatures of habit and it is for sure difficult to change the way we have always been. For me changing from a night owl to an early bird will not be without repercussions I am sure. However, it is still dark out, I can still hear the crickets, so it is kind of like it is nighttime anyways. Except bonus, I feel like accomplishing things instead of munching. So wow, win win.
You feel like there is something in your life you want to change? Go for it. You can do it. If I can wake up before dawn, anything is possible. :)
Soooo you posted this months ago, but I am just reading it now :) How is this going?! I have the same problem--exactly. You worded it so well here! The endless cycle of being an exhausted, grumpy mama. I'm just trying to go to bed earlier but I am seriously impressed you were waking up earlier!
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